—It's because she's paying attention. It's because she, like you, is obsessed with getting it right; but she, unlike you, gets it right not apart from or about but in, inside of, every moment like its own reckoning, across breaths, through shouts and gasps, between the murmurs of speech or love or death. Whereas you, paralyzed, sit and watch in terror that it might escape you, that you might get it wrong after all. So it does. So you do.